I am writing this blog while traveling by train from west to east.Today work starts again.
The seven weeks holiday has been great.
I have lived with him all these days and it felt as it has been like that for many years.
He made coffee this morning for the both of us.
A few weeks before the holiday started I have made a decision.
The coming year I am going to search for another job.
I have taught almost 25 years and for most of the time I have loved it.
I am very gratefull for all the experiences I got over these years.
The students who I taught and from which I learned a lot.
My colleagus with whom I worked together and they also taught me a lot.
But I noticed within myself the urge for a change.
My motivation is going down.
That is not good for me, and not good for my students and colleagues.
I have a hate/love affair with the fashion world.
The over-production of garments.
The horrible situations in the factories.
Those are a few reasons why I want to stop and change.
Now there is room and space to search and develop into a new direction.
Within the coming year I hope to find it.
I have spoken about it within the organisation of my work.
There is no hiding or neither a secret that I want to take this step.
I got a lot of support till now from the people around me at my work and in my private life.
I really don't know what the direction will be.
There are little thoughts and ideas.
The proces has already started.
Because I like writing one of the things to start with will be a new blog in Dutch.
The content will be focussed on my search.
At this moment I am thinking about a good title for it.
This blog will be slightly on hold for a while.
Little posts might appear if I feel the urge to write.
Another thing I have planned to do is clearing out my house.
I want space and room within myself and this really needs to be done.
There is help for me in this proces.
Books to read and people to talk with.
I am really looking forward to it.
The energy is there.
Time for a change.