vrijdag 19 maart 2010

Migraine.....

Migraine.. every now and than I suffer from a Migraine attack. Last night one suddenly came up when a woke up at 4.30. It is not a good sign for me because usually it means that I haven't taken good care of myself in general. So I had to stay home today (sorry class) after I had taken 2 paracetamol's and a good and deep sleep I feel much better now. Guess sometimes my body reacts when it all becomes too much and than I really have to listen to it. I hadn't had one for a long time but it can hit me suddenly out of nowhere. For years ago it happened once during lessons and my students told me to go home because I looked terrible. Sleep and paracetamol helps me and after it I am really hungry and must eat some sweet things.
So now I am fine but I am still thinking why it has happened. Guess it has to do that the life the both of us are having is dramatically changed. Last night I saw Bram climbing the stairs and it broke my heart because he was so tired and could hardly walk. We are still searching for the reason of his illness and are now in the hands of a healer and we are going to visit an antroposofic doctor in 2 weeks time and we hope things will change. The healer is very special but we can't see a change yet. I am very sensitive I have found out but don't know yet. He also told some amazing things about myself which really hit me and things he really couldn't know. We are open to it, have also a little doubts... but we hope things will change to the better. Writing this blog helps me to keep everything in perspective. Someone told me that it is very personal the things I am writing and if I was aware of that. Yes, that is true and I am aware of it, but I guess I am not the only one in the world who has to deal with those things of life, and knowing that makes a big difference
So this is very much in my mind I guess and that combined with a busy job sometimes gives me a migraine attack. It also has to do with my personality I thinks which is very sensitive and things can hit me very deep and than my emotions start running around in my mind. I guess dealing with the things happening to me and us is not very easy for the both of us. But there is no other choice I also feel and we only can do it our way. Even writing this makes me emotional. It all has to do with doubts and an uncertain feeling because we do not know what is wrong with him. There is no reason found but I see him going farther down every week. We try to live a normal life, even have booked a cottage for the coming summer on Shetland but we both are a bit uncertain if this will work out fine. Perhaps we have to take a wheelchair with us but that is a big step to make for us.It is all easy said: use a wheelchair but the feeling coming with that is something different. We try to keep optimistic in this situation but it is sometimes hard. He is starting his day with tiredness and I start the day with worrying. Work sometimes helps me to forget... The cottage on Shetland is nice and comfortable and we will stay 3 weeks and hope for the best. Knitting still helps me to calm down. I did finish 2 shawls. Another Herbivore and Daybreak. I know Spring is round the corner but I still wear a shawl every day. I have a pair of socks on the needles named: the Nine-To-Five socks in beautiful blue/ purple hand dyed Auracania Ranco Multi yarn. Love it!! I got this yarn as a gift from my knitting friend Dorien who lives in the USA and whom I met a few weeks ago in my school when she was over for a few days. I forgot to take pictures, but we had a nice time together and it was great meeting up in real!!! Yesterday I had to go to The Hague to visit a student who is doing a 20 weeks training at Omar Munie who is a handbag designer. I was touched by his life story: coming from Somalia and having the passion to start his won brand in luxury handbags. My student is doing great over there and I was very proud of her!! After that I did some shopping and bought some more sock-yarn at Woool which is a lovely yarn shop. The Hague is not my favourite city to go but Spring has arrived there too... Spring is my favourite season when everything starts again...
P.S.1. I got wonderful news this afternoon. After writing my entry about the blue print studio in Puchov I got a mail from my friend Miro in which he wrote that he a had a talk with the family and that the son will take over the firm and that they are thinking of setting up a museum in town and that the city council is willing to help. I really hope this will work out fine and that one day I can visit the museum and buy some more beautiful fabric.
P.s.2. After writing the entry this afternoon I got a wonderful mail from a friend and that has kept me thinking. I guess I am just frightened and my fear is the biggest enemy for coming in terms with it. Fear of what "they" will think of it, fear for reactions.. etc. Maybe that is what I can learn from it to get over my fear and live more in the moment..

dinsdag 2 maart 2010

Voici Paris!!!....in The Hague

Today I went with 3 colleagues and about 50 students from Higher Textile Education by train to The Hague. The main reason was to visit the exhibition: Voici Paris! about the history of Haute Couture in the Gemeente museum. It is always a joy to go there. The museum is designed by Architect Berlage and is in my opinion a very good building for a museum.It doesn't have the darkness of other buildings from Berlage. It has a lightness and very open atmosphere and usually the exhibitions are very nice.
So today it was about Haute Couture... The exhibition is designed by a famous Dutch stylist: Maarten Spruyt and he did a marvellous job. I have always admired "Haute Couture" ever since I was young. It has this combination of the work of the fashion-designer combined with the craftsmanship of all workers who work in a fashion-house. No one can work without each-other and together they can make the most wonderful outfits..Hours of work in one dress.. millions of paillettes stitched on a dress one by one..beautiful embroideries.. stunning handwoven fabrics...embellishments from silk..and much much more.. On the other hand it is very silly to buy a dress for over 100.000 Euro's and this always gives me a kind of confusion. It is only for the very , very rich and that really is not my thing...But I have this "double feeling" on more topics of life...Why are there people so rich that they can afford dresses like this and why is the other part of humans starving from hunger? But today I watched in amazing all the beautiful dresses from the famous Fashion houses from Paris together with the students. I did a kind of guided tour with a big group even tough I hadn't seen the exhibition. I always love to lecture during a visit in a museum...so I had great fun telling them all the ins and outs of the Haute Couture World. I have read a lot of it and my favourite 2 books about the background of fashion is "The Fashion Conspiracy" from Nicholas Coleridge and "TheLuxe" from Dana Thomas. Both books give a real insight in the "strange world called fashion". The exhibition did start with a collection from Chanel for Spring/Summer 2009 in white and black with paper head pieces which came back at panels in the back also made from paper.The craftsmanship could be seen in the embroidery and the luxury fabrics. Couture is about luxury and a perfect fit. and so are the famous Chanel jackets also designed with a silk lining and a tiny chain to keep the jacket in shape. But is not only about embroidery as can be seen in this dress from Madeleine Vionnet with it's spectacular shape by using the fabric on the bias, and on the right a dress from Maggy Rouff with a beautiful pattern and a very elegant dress. Not everybody could afford a dress from a fashion-house but you could buy patterns and have it made by a tailor. Examples were a dress after a pattern from Christobal Balenciaga the famous Spanish fashion designer who worked with architectual shapes and a jacket from Jack Desses made by C.H.K├╝hne & Zn in Holland were you can see the perfection of the sewing. In another room pieces from Christian Lacroix could be seen. Unfortunately the house went bankrupt last year but I have always loved his collections because he has the guts to put really pieces of bright colours into his designs as can be seen in this polka-dot dress with the flaming red part. I can imagine that the model could have worn apple green gloves wit it. Of-course pieces from the "rebel of fashion" were there: Jean Paul Gaultier who's couture collections are always beautiful and special. I remember when I went to Art school he just came up and we all loved his designs. His pin- stripe suits, his Junior collection (I had 2 pieces of it), his skirts for men, his sailor stripes and many , many more... The biggest room was a homage to Christian Dior and all the famous shapes he showed in the beginning of his fashion-house and these dresses are now designed by John Galliano. It was a very strange romantic atmosphere with snails walking everywhere...and you could see all details...AMAZING!!! But the biggest surprise to me was the collection from a Chinese Designer called: Ma Ke. It was a couture installation about the lifecycle.Surrounded by huge photos from a chines family dressed in her clothes were simple clothes layed on the floor which was covered with sand. It is all handmade and made in natural fabric and dyed with natural pigments. So very touching and breath taking..In interview with her can be read here.For me the absolute highlight of the exhibition...